Verse of the Day

"The fear of human opinion disables; trusting in GOD protects you from that.”  Proverbs 29:25 (from The Message Bible)

This is the dichotomy that I wrestle with on a regular basis....not concerning my behavior, but rather my words.  Too often, I choose to be silent....because, let's face it, I'm quick to use the abundance of words stored up in me....but not always judiciously.  I want the freedom to speak my mind and what God puts on my heart..... or take a stand for the weak..... or be a voice for the voiceless.... HOWEVER, I don't want to deal with the backlash of opposing opinions.  I don't always have the strength or energy for that fight.   The enemy of my soul knows that, too.  So, then, the subtle hissing serpent begins, "Watch what you say.  You don't have enough knowledge to defend your position.  You'll offend people that are already hurting.  They'll come back at  you with a vengeance, like a wounded animal..... you'll lose friends...." [& this one is the big guns for me] "you'll make your family mad and they won't talk to or respect you anymore.  You won't be part of the family."

Now all that is on a weak day.  Unfortunately,  I have had too many of them due to physical challenges, personal life issues, etc.  On a good day and especially on a strong, confident day.... well, it's a piece of cake.  The Lord has gifted me sufficiently as a compassionate orator...and when the A.D.D. isn't sidelining me, as a knowledgeable one, as well.  :-)  But it requires a good bit of cerebral energy.  That wouldn't be an issue if I didn't already have so much on my plate simply trying to be a good single mommy.... in all the facets & nuances of that magnanimous profession.  :-)

So, when it seems that I back down from an issue or helping someone in need, I don't want anyone to mistake that for cowardice or apathy.  Those who know me well, understand that those words are not in my vocabulary (well, except in the case of forced apathy due to putting myself in a holding pattern, more on that another time).  Sometimes, I am simply trying to be prudent.  Other times, I am simply worn the heck out.  :-)

Have a beautiful, blessed day full of love and laughter today, my friends.  :-)

I have my follow-up appointment with the orthopedic surgeon regarding the results of my full-body bone scan and MRI.  Believing God for a good report.  Tumor gone.  NO bone infection and NOTHING that will hinder me from "running the race set before me".  :-)  Agree with me in prayer, please.  Mwah!