February 14, 2010

1. Sagittarius (11/22-12/21)

   Ready to raise some eyebrows? Well, when aren't you? Your freedom-seeking nature makes it all too easy to try something new, no matter who might have refused before you. The good news now is you're operating with a nice, solid safety net, while being allowed to dream at the same time. So what's the holdup? Get busy turning those dreams into a reality. What have you always wanted to do?
   
   It's funny because just yesterday I was thinking about writing down what I dream of doing and being. Right down to the last detail of the curtains in my home office being white with grass-green fern patterns on them. haha   On a serious note, though, while I was at work with a hurting body...that has gotten worse since I started working there because of the nature of the work, I was feeling discouraged at first.  I was thinking...I have a family depending on me to earn a decent enough living to support us...keep a roof over our heads, food on the table, a reliable vehicle, etc.....and soon, college tuition.... but right now, all I'm qualified for is manual labor jobs..... BUT my poor body.  Even with the wonder medicines, the fibromyalgia is still there. I'm waiting for Tricare to approve my carpal tunnel surgeries but my hands curl up sometimes when the nerves are overloaded...actually, when they are worked at all.  The pain up my arms and the limited use of my hands..... it's scary.  Thank God that "on Christ the Solid Rock I stand"....but y'all know me, I love my Jesus and I know what he's done for me....but I'm still a human momma who doesn't know how she's going to take care of her family.  
   
   I have to soon start looking for work up in Maryland, especially if I'm going to transfer my govt employee status to something up there.  But I feel discouraged....and a bit overwhelmed.  Need to find a job up there...need to find housing up there....and the thought of having to pack up this funky house and CLEAN it...deep clean, fix crap, and make it presentable to turn the keys over to the landlord?  YIKES!  This family is hard on a place, I tell ya.  And trying to figure out:  MD or PA? I'd like PA to be closer to the family. Although, MD is not far at all.  But I have to think about in-state residency for Josiah's tuition.  
   
   Lord, open something up and let it all fall into place. I'm gonna give this to ya, Lord, cuz I can't hold on to it anymore.  I got stuff to do.  So could You handle this for me, please, so I can focus on enjoying my family?  Thank ya, kindly, sir. :-) (heehee...like He's not ALREADY handling all the stuff in my life. lol)