Job Rant

Okay, I have to say that I have HAD IT with companies who make you do your applications online or on their "special" computers in the store. Do they EVER even GET to a REAL person? And God forbid if you have to change anything on it. You can't just go to the store and say, "oh yeah, I have a new contact number and would like to change it on my application or give it to someone in HR". Nope. Gotta fill out a WHOLE NEW APPLICATION ONLINE. I'm sorry but WTH?? Two places that I know FOR A FACT are hiring are Walmart and Lowes. There's a sweet job in the logistics center for Walmart that is great money/benefits. It's on the job leads sheet that I get from the Women's Center each week. I figured out WHY it's on there each week. Nobody can get their applications to them! Then I try going into my app online to change my phone number. Nope. Gotta start from the very beginning. That is if I can even remember what the username/password combo is. It's not anything I would normally use. It has odd requirements. I tried changing it to another one but seconds later when I try to use it, it won't go through. I am fed up with it. And don't even get me started on Lowe's, the place I really want to work (because, I'll admit, I have a thing for hardware stores.....ok, well, and for men who can fix and build stuff. ;-) ). It's down the street from here. Right next to the daycare center that takes the Military Child Care Assistance program....I filled out the app on their computer.....talked to the manager.....tried to go back and change the phone number (you know, so someone could actually CONTACT me)....there's nowhere on the website to go into your app and update....you guessed it, she told me I'd have to start all over. WTH? I said (politely, of course :-) ) that THIS is the store where I want to work, all I need to give you is my new phone number. Nope. I give up on Lowe's. And then I thought, okay, Food Lion is across the street from my house, looks like a nice little neighborhood grocery store and the people are friendly.....guess what? Can't talk to a manager about hiring (even though I was told that they could use cashiers)....gotta go ONLINE and fill out an app, which I did but it says there's no jobs in my area. Okay, so who else? Oh yeah.....FT BRAGG! I stayed in the Airborne Inn when we were moving, overheard the manager of housekeeping say that they were in DESPERATE need of housekeepers. She told me to go asap to the NAF office and fill out an app. Yeah, I did that. Have been there a few more times to follow up. Have called. Hm, "no, sorry, they haven't hired anyone yet" WTH? Filled out a bunch more apps for various jobs on Post that I KNOW are hiring. NADA.

I'm starting to wonder if I'm even supposed to get a job. I know that's ridiculous. Of course, I am supposed to work but damn..... I want to SUCCEED so badly. I told Clinton the other night when he was here and we were out having a deep discussion...I said, "you don't understand, I don't WANT to be dependent on you" He said, "yes you do". Oh hell no. I'm dependent on him right now because of the kids. But if I didn't have that constraint, I would not be dependent on him at all. It makes me sick to think he believes HE'S the one who carried ME during this marriage just because he had the paycheck. Oh well, don't want to dwell on all that and get into a "who-struck-John" thing. All I know is that I must not only survive but THRIVE and I have to do it without his help so he can't rub it in my face. Yeah, I know....pride. :-)