dare to dream?

Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)

"Your long-term goals are more important to you than ever, but they really don't have to be very realistic. This isn't about making a plan and accomplishing everything on your list. It's about creative dreaming, for that's what motivates you to step beyond the ordinary and into the world of greater potential."

Every day, I have a "to do" list and I don't feel content at the end of the day if I don't cross everything off. Sometimes, it's just simple stuff like, "make the beds, fold laundry, get milk, etc." Sometimes, it's more cerebral or business-type stuff. Today, I woke up with a migraine. No "to do" list. Took some motrin but that just keeps it out of my eyes and in the back of my head....like it's just taunting me, saying, "ha ha, I'm still here, you thought you got rid of me but when you least expect it....*BAM*!" Okay, maybe no more 800 mg motrin for me. lol Now, I've personified my migraines. Lovely. I feel sick to my stomach, lethargic, achy, clammy. Fortunately, the weather is nice (71 degrees) and I have all the windows open to give me fresh air and breezes. And then there's Aidan who thinks that if I am sitting down, I immediately transform into a piece of playground equipment. lol Fun times.

Anyway, I digress (who me?)..... I've been revisiting my lifelong dream of being a writer....a real writer, you know, like one who actually gets PAID for it. lol But I always put it on the back burner in my mind because there are more pertinent things to take care of and I don't have time to "dream". Real life hits me hard and swift. But then I think of the Scripture, "Where there is no VISION, the people PERISH." I have become so perfunctory that I don't allow myself to dream. When did I become cynical? When did my "can do" attitude turn into a "why bother?" attitude? Sometimes, I think the light has grown dim in me but every once in awhile, I see it glowing brightly. I need to fan it into flame more often. I need to stare into the eyes of Jesus instead of at the waves around me. I need to tune into His still, small voice that calls me His Warrior Princess, His Beloved, and not to the growling and gnashing of teeth around me that says I'm worthless, abandoned, unwanted. When I used to do the Women's Study newsletter years ago for Trinity, I remember an acronym that God had given to me one night on a long drive home. D.R.E.A.M.S. One who DREAMS is one who Dares to Resist the Empty Accusations of Mind and Soul. Your mind will get all logical and give you points A, B, C as to why something can't be done. Your soul, the seat of your emotions, will get all touchy-feely on you and cut at your self esteem. A DREAMER is one who DARES to resist those EMPTY ACCUSATIONS. They are EMPTY because we are WHO GOD SAYS WE ARE....not who our minds or emotions or even other people say we are.

I AM going to be a writer, a paid one. :-) I don't know how. I don't know when. But it has been my calling for many, many years and I can't ignore it anymore. I have to step out on a limb and dare to dream.