SNAFU

Well, we're getting ready to check out of the hotel and 'the man' calls to ask if I have any way to come up with the first months rent. The moving truck is parked in the driveway of the house but we can't get the key until that is paid. I've got nothing. The little bit I have, I'm holding on to because I'll need to buy groceries when we move in. I have no more money coming in until my first paycheck....but of course, I need to actually HAVE A JOB in order to get a paycheck. I'm waiting to hear from one place and the other place that I need to go to, I haven't been able to because all I have on me is dirty shorts and a tshirt. I did get the electricity, water and sewer turned on at the new house for today so when I actually get in there and hook up the washer and dryer, I can wash clothes.

He asked me to make some calls to see what I can come up with but honestly, there's not a single person or place I can go to to get it. So, in a few minutes, I'm loading up the van (which is already packed to the roof), chicken pox girl and rascally baby and leaving the hotel to go into the great unknown. It's been raining here and the boys are in school right now. I'm just going to try to "accept the things I cannot change" and look for ways to "change the things I can" and STAY OUT OF THE MAN'S PATH TODAY. Most importantly, I'm praying that God gives me a good sense of humor to ride the waves and make it through to the other side.

p.s. did I mention that I really CAN'T STAND "the man"???? I swear I do not know that person inside his body. Just got off the phone with him and he is such a rude, selfish bastard. Wanted to let him know that the hotel moved some numbers around and managed to give us one more night's stay for no extra money. You'd think he'd be happy that his children (especially his daughter who has chicken pox and who he never asked to talk to to see if she was okay!) are not sleeping in the van tonight and going to school from there. But, no, when I called to say that the hotel gave us an extra night at no charge, he snapped, "Great! how much is that going to cost me???!!" The irony to me about him is that it's always about the money with him but in his attempt to control and sneak and lie (instead of honest-to-goodness, roll-up-your-sleeves teamwork) he winds up with LESS money. I can't believe I married him, thinking he'd make a good father and partner. Yeah, I misjudged that one! We are definitely NOT on the same sheet of music when it comes to the family.