Odds and Ends

Woke up feeling a little blue. Not sure why. Sometimes it hits me out of nowhere. I try not to pay much attention to it but rather do some things to try to alleviate it. If it doesn't start to lift, then I'll address it. Sometimes, it's just because I'm tired or it's dreary outside. But I could feel this one was going to kick my butt and make me lose a whole day if I didn't take the bull by the horns ASAP. So, before the kids woke, I got dressed (in nice jeans and a "real" shirt), washed my face, did my hair and makeup, brushed my teeth, put on my jewelry and boots. Okay, NOW, I was ready to face my day. I felt so much better. Oh and I'm lovin that Ray Charles cd that I forgot I had and just found. It's amazing how dancing around the house to "Hit the Road, Jack" can lift my spirits when I start getting a case of the "how could he do that to me?" blues. :-). Then there's the song: "Go Ahead and Cry". I usually do. :-)

I've been trying to meet up with "the man" to get a separation agreement in writing and what not. He's hard to get a hold of and pin down to a time. I didn't want to discuss things here. For 2 reasons: 1) don't want to talk about it around the kids, his time here should be solely for being with them and 2) want to meet somewhere public (not behind closed doors or sitting in the van) to alleviate an uncomfortable scenario and make being intimate not an option. That's hard to do, but it is necessary. So we settled on a time and place finally. Hopefully we'll get some things set in place before he leaves for school. Need prayer for that meeting to be amicable and productive.
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I just came back from the library on Post. Haven't been there in about 4 years. I felt so lost. I spend so much time in bookstores that I completely forgot how to find anything in the library. I was looking for the little category markers over the aisles. Nothing. lol I finally broke down and asked for help and had to ask how the system works and how it was all categorized (Dewey Decimal-who?). Of course, I'm whispering because I didn't want anyone else to know I was a big doofus! lol

But once I got comfortable, it was really nice to be there. There's nothing like the smell of a library when you're a book lover. It was peaceful and smelled good. I think I could've taken a nap there. :-) I want to start reading more again. It's so hard for me to sit still for too long and actually concentrate on a book. But I stopped watching all of my shows at night (I don't watch TV during the day. Am I the only SAHM who doesn't watch TV?)and after the kids go to bed, there's no one for me to talk to (I usually just fall asleep), I thought taking up reading again would be enriching. I got some serious books, some light-hearted ones and an autobiography (Don Rickles). Only 7 books this time. Didn't want to overdue it my first time back out there. :-) Plus, I have about 20 books that the kids checked out of the school library for their Reading Club. We read one or two of those each night (personally, I really enjoy the kids books and have been known to pretend to buy books for them that I actually wanted. :-) )

Yesterday was my day to be the reader for the Read-To-Me Club at the kids' school. I enjoyed it. The book the librarian chose was, "My Brother, Martin", by the sister of Martin Luther King. It was a good book albeit long for such a young audience. The illustrations were captivating and I did my best to read it in an interesting way to keep their attention. The subject matter was interesting and relevant but I couldn't help but wonder what the little ones in my multi-racial audience were thinking. Fortunately, this is the week that the school really discusses Martin Luther King so I knew they had been "prepped". It was a really heady subject matter for those innocents.