"The eye cannot say to the hand, "I don't need you!" And the head cannot say to the feet, "I don't need you!" "
Very interesting. Angela was giving me a "talkin' to" the other day about something along these lines. I have a tendency to shelter myself when I feel like my life isn't lining up in "acceptable" ways. I pull back from friends and family because I get embarrassed about the mess my life is. I feel like I should have it more "together" than I do. I feel like I should be able to do this all by myself... no help ... and I get mad at myself, wondering why I can't.
Hm, isn't that interesting. Angela was giving me a "talkin' to" just the other day about something along these lines. I have a bad habit of sheltering myself away when I feel like my life isn't lining up in an "acceptable" way. I feel way too vulnerable to risk criticism or judgmental-ism. I get embarrassed when it's not all together YET. It should be by now. I should be able to do this by myself. Why is that so hard??
Welllll .... it's because that's not how God designed His Body of believers. We are each a part. Sometimes, I feel like I'm just a "receiving" part and can't imagine what I could possibly have to give. Most of the time, I just feel like the toenail on the baby toe or an eyebrow hair or something seemingly insignificant. And then there's the "hands" and the "left-side of the brain" constantly coming to my rescue .... because I stubbed the baby toe and half the toenail came off or the eyebrow hair turned gray and is sticking out at some weird angle .... I want to say, "Stop helping me. I should be able to fix this/solve this/plan this/pay for this by myself." But the truth is: I can't. I have to accept that. I have to allow God to take care of me through whatever part of the Body He sends a signal to. It's just how it is. I can't fight it .... and God knows I try my damnedest to fight it .... but it's futile.
Welllll .... it's because that's not how God designed His Body of believers. We are each a part. Sometimes, I feel like I'm just a "receiving" part and can't imagine what I could possibly have to give. Most of the time, I just feel like the toenail on the baby toe or an eyebrow hair or something seemingly insignificant. And then there's the "hands" and the "left-side of the brain" constantly coming to my rescue .... because I stubbed the baby toe and half the toenail came off or the eyebrow hair turned gray and is sticking out at some weird angle .... I want to say, "Stop helping me. I should be able to fix this/solve this/plan this/pay for this by myself." But the truth is: I can't. I have to accept that. I have to allow God to take care of me through whatever part of the Body He sends a signal to. It's just how it is. I can't fight it .... and God knows I try my damnedest to fight it .... but it's futile.
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Glad to know you are thinking through this. It's hard for all of us. It requires a laying down of our pride and desire to "have it all together" which none of us do- therefore the reason for Jesus!! Love ya, keep writing!!
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