Love and Learn

I'm starting to think that betrayal in my life knows no bounds (okay, so maybe "betrayal" is too strong and dramatic sounding....but it hurts....so it fits right now). I am quickly learning that I am too naive and trusting. I have been out of the "worldly loop" for too long and forget how people can truly be. I also forget that people process things in their own unique ways. I can't expect others to have the same vantage point or the same way of handling things as I do. Every one is different and that's what makes the world go 'round, right? :-) Not to mention, that my way doesn't always work so well for ME, why would anyone else want to give it a try? lol

But the TRUTH is always the BEST so I am glad that GOD'S MERCY shines light on darkness for me. I want to walk in the light. I'm not a secretive person. Seriously, it's just too much work. My life is pretty much an open book to anyone who wants to know me. Better to LOVE AND LEARN. Yeah, love can hurt (God knows I could teach a class on that!) but the 'perks' that it brings...well....they make life so much sweeter. So if loving people will hurt me, then so be it. I'd rather that than to live in a world devoid of the SWEETNESS and SUNSHINE that love brings. And I know that sometimes LOVING ME hurts other people (my poor Momma, family and friends know that, sadly). I can only pray that they will turn to Jesus with that. He's the only one who s perfect and who perfectly loves.

Don't ask, y'all. I'm not telling. I just needed to vent. I am also quickly learning that I must not be worth the truth. Actually, I AM worth the truth. I am worth so much more than that. I am a child of the KING. I am a PRINCESS. Those who hurt me without provocation or lie to me are not worth MY TIME. The sooner I discover that, the better.

I just don't understand people. I thought I did. But sometimes people don't want you to care about them. Sometimes, they don't care enough about themselves to let anyone shine in their lives or show them love or want to stop and smell the roses with them.

My favorite saying for years has been "LOVE AND LEARN". I've wanted to get it as my license plate. It'll probably be my next tattoo. It is my motto. This is what I told my kids in a letter I wrote to them a few years ago. You've heard, "Live and Learn". But I believe the true lessons of life and in really knowing OURSELVES.....comes from LOVING. Loving involves so much RISK. But the opportunity for revelation about ourselves and the nature of God that it affords are well worth it. I will not stop loving because it HURTS. I will just pray for discernment and trust that Jesus is there for me to crawl up onto His big Poppa lap and cry when my best friend steals my dollies. :-)




Here is a quote about Love from my favorite author, C.S. Lewis:

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”