Prayer Needed!

Pray, y'all! I've pissed off "the man" ROYALLY by doing something that needed to be done to stablilize the kids' foundation....ie: keep a settlement check from his totalled truck that was in my name. HE IS PISSED! I prayed fervently and sought counsel from several sources and strongly believe this is the thing to do and is an answer to prayer. My friend gave me the analogy of his harsh words being like him throwing a temper tantrum. But it's scary, nonetheless.

Initially, I was trying to be "fair" but was reminded by others that he's not "fair" with me. The ones that we BOTH need to be FAIR to is the KIDS. They need to not have to go without basic necessities ANYMORE.

Yes, this leaves him in a bind, a big one, but as others have pointed out, he dug that hole himself. Now, I am uncomfortable with making people suffer. But I have to choose between MY KIDS suffering or HIM suffering......well, the kids have suffered enough. It's time to see the light at the end of the tunnel and secure their foundation. My mother calls it INSTANT KARMA.

Pray for my protection. He said he is just going to come get the van which will leave us without a vehicle. By rights, he can do that. But morally, ethically? That's not a man's way of acting.


EDITED TO ADD: He just left a message and he sounds broken. He really needs some of that money to get a car, he said he was going to give me some anyway and that even though I think he is withholding money from me, he isn't, he doesn't have it. The thing is that he has a long history of lying to me and not putting the needs of the children first that I can't tell anymore when he's telling the truth. He says that he's not withholding money from me but I have learned (a LONG time ago) that he doesn't, he's not capable, of keeping his word. My mother reminded me that I am dealing with someone who exhibits lack of conscience.

I am torn right now. I don't want to be. I want to be solid and ruthless about this and not merciful but I HATE when people suffer, especially if I can alleviate it. I HAVE TO THINK OF THE KIDS. ARGGGHHHHH!!!!!

Edited to add: well, just got off the phone with DMV. There's no way around the 15 day mandatory wait period for a duplicate title. Without the title, the insurance company won't cut the check. When I didn't know there was a settlement check, I had sent the title to "the man" when he requested it (the day after he was here for Olivia's birthday), thinking it was no good to me anymore. I signed it over to him incorrectly and now it is void. Which works to my advantage now because I would've never known about this check. But it poses the question: How was he thinking he was going to cash this check that was made out to me? Anyway, it's good that I signed the title incorrectly but sucks that now I have to wait 15 days to get a duplicate. I used rent money to pay the liens on the title so pray the rental company (and the van loan company and the utilities and the phone company......) are understanding. What money I have left right now, I will have to use for food and gas.

Feeling bummed right now but I think I just need some protein and a nap. lol