Letting Go of Guilt

I have a lot of thoughts going through my head and a lot of feelings....some of them conflicting. God is doing something that I don't know all the details to....so I'm just going to be still and wait.....and pray. I think I'm going to stop blogging for a little while, too.

I'm so conditioned to Clint trying to "play" me or lie to me that I expect that. I forget about all of the prayers I have prayed and the possibility that something positive is happening in the spiritual realm and in his soul and heart. I also, too often, forget that he is a human being with feelings. I stayed up most of the night, praying for him. And I prayed and repented for the things I've done wrong....whatever I could think of....in regard to our relationship over the years.

I got this awesome book from my sweet friend, Angela S., called, "His Princess: Love Letters from Your King". Amazing book. This is what page it opened up to today while the kids and I were picnicking at the lake after church. It brought tears to my eyes because it hit me where I "live".

"MY PRINCESS....LET GO OF GUILT"

"All have sinned and fall short of My glory, so why won't you forgive yourself when you fall? Don't you know that I will pick you up when you call out to Me and repent? There is no wrong that can keep Me, your King, from redeeming you back to your royal life again. Read My Word, My love; many of My chosen ones made mistakes. Just as I gave each of them a new start, so will I do the same for you. This is a new day, and I am ready to do a new thing in you. Now , let go of guilt, and trust Me to work out what went wrong. Just watch Me make you into the person I called you to be. I am the God of second chances, and My mercy endures forever!

Love, Your King who removes your guilt"

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing." (Isaiah 43:18-19)

There was that Scripture again from my blog post a few days back. And I like the part about the Lord being the "God of second chances". That's what a mulligan is in golf......a second chance, a "do over". Now I'm not seeing it as a second chance at our marriage, not at all. It just occurred to me that whenever I say or write my name, it is a reminder to me that He is the "God of second chances".