He's here. I'm blank, numb, can't think of words to describe our conversation.

I just want to go take a nap. I don't know what to believe anymore. I'm confused. I need discernment to know what is true and what is false. I can't rely on my feelings anymore because he knows how to play them. Funny, he says the same thing about me. I just wish he would leave but the kids are enjoying being with him. It looks like he is not going to be around for awhile, a long while, judging by what he's saying. I don't know him anymore. Maybe I never did.

I'm going to get alone in my room (that has doors on it now, woohoo....my room is in the living room and there were no doors but my neighbor put bi-fold doors on for me today....after he tried to salvage my washing machine which is completely dead so I have to get another one....yeah and after my other neighbor asked me on a friggin DATE! WTH??? And I definitely did NOT misinterpret it. He was pretty clear). I'm thinking I'll have a glass of wine while I'm in my room, too. Aw, hell, I think I'll just take the whole bottle in. lol He took everyone to get dinner. Asked me to go along but I couldn't do it. I'm thankful for a quiet house right now. I need to let the dust settle so I can see more clearly what I'm dealing with.

Yeah, I'm numb (even without the wine).....but not "comfortably". lol