I am at my wit's end. The morning was going okay until I talked to the agent renting the house that I want so badly. Then the reality of how UTTERLY IMPOSSIBLE it is going to be for me to get a house for me and the kids hit me and now I can't stop crying. I have no money, no job, bad credit score, no housing references. Clinton would have to fill out the application and be listed as the primary and everything will have to be from his income which all won't happen until hell freezes over. I can't try to secure all the stuff I need to line up AND still do all the mommy stuff. My kids need me and I need to find a job and somewhere for us to live in just a short amount of time. I know that we are going to wind up in a homeless shelter somewhere and will have to sell all of our belongings. I can't imagine what other choice there is.
Aidan wants me to hold him all the time and the kids need me and I'm trying to conduct business and talk to every agency I can to try to find a way and there just is NO WAY. I can't take this anymore. I can't get any peace and quiet to try to focus on things. There are so many distractions and so many needs and i'm just one person and i can't do this anymore. I dont' know what to do. i can't give up but what else is there.
I feel so scared and helpless.
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I'm not going to even attempt to give you advice on what you can do. At best my advice would fall short as I have never had to deal with all the many things you have on your plate. I am going to try to encourage you to stand strong in your faith. For whatever reason all this is happening, if you hold on to your faith, God can help strengthen you. I know form other comments I have read on your blog, there are people praying for a miracle for you and your family. Your needs will be met somehow. Stay strong.
We are never given more than we can bear even though sometimes it seems different.
I'll continue to keep you my prayers.
everything always works out how it's supposed to ... have faith....
you will see a beautiful rainbow at the end of this storm :)
I will continue to pray like nobody's business. God is in the midst of this -- even when he seems far away.
Keep trusting. Keep trying. Keep praying.
Much love.....
Oh my. I am praying for you and your children. Many, many hugs & prayers & positive thoughts being sent your way.
I'm praying for you as always. I admit that a man who can leave his family in a situation like this, even in a divorce situation, is no man at all. He should be ashamed.
HI Jeanette.... A good career choice for you might be in home daycare...you can get liscensed thru the state, and stay at home with your little one.
I don't know how, but God will make a way. We're all standing in the gap for you. Do what you can, and trust.
Hugs.
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