My husband found out that I had private pictures of OW. I didn't show anyone, I just asked her if it was her. I hosted it on photobucket in a private album just so she could see and as soon as she did, I deleted it. They were pictures she had given to him. She told him and now I'm in danger. I knew talking to her today was too good to be true. I was trying to be gracious and we messaged a lot and we talked. My friends warned me that I shouldn't talk to her. I haven't written any details as to her identity on here whatsoever. No one in my life knows who she is, her name or anything.

Plus, he read my blog after she gave him the link. So I just got wakened up at midnight with "you're going to hell" and "you are the sleaziest piece of sh!& I know" because she sent a text message to him about the picture. He told me that he was going to drag my name through the mud and humiliate me like I humiliate people on my blog. He talked to me in a way that I have never heard him talk before. Funny thing is that he had already read my blog yesterday and didn't seem irate at all. Why tonight is any worse I'm not sure.

So much for shining light in the darkness and exposing lies in order to fight for my marriage. By the end of the day, I felt good about our emails (with OW) and even didn't feel anger towards my husband anymore and felt a respect and admiration for her accomplishments in areas of her life. I was thinking about him in a different light, too. I did a lot of thinking today (in a house FULL of kids, which is no easy feat). In fact, right before he called I had been praying for him with compassion, like a friend prays for a friend.

Yeah, I'm pretty sure he has never had such seething hatred for me as he does now. He just called and said he is going to hurt me. Wow, like he can hurt me anymore than he already has. He's starting a blog and hosting "wifey" pictures that I've given to him on it. Lovely. Classy. Insane. And all because I exposed his adultery.

Pray people.

And in case you don't read my comments, here's the one he left to me in response to this post. Thought you all would like to hear the other side of the story:

Anonymous said...

Stop lying to the world and making yourself out to be such a victim. You speak in half truths and are quick to say what you need to for people's pity. You care only in getting what you want, you humiliate and threaten anyone you need to. Its been close to a year of telling you I never want to be married to you again. Your efforts at making me starving, broke and alone aren't going to work this time. Leave my life alone. Your poison and dangerous.

5:18 AM

Yup, this is the love of my life whose lap I had my head laying on last weekend, watching tv, feeling loved and content and safe. Now he has become my worst enemy. I hope that those who read this regularly have not seen me as one who isn't open about her faults. I try to be transparent like that. I tried to praise my husband when it was due. My crime is that I am tenacious about fighting for my family. At times, I even need to fight myself when there is anything in me that hinders the health and growth of this family. My husband hates me with passion but I love him still very much. This is going to be a hard road. Most importantly, pray for our children. They want so badly to have their family back together. They thrive when he's up here and it feels like all is right with our world. But it is what it is. I'm too opinionated, stubborn, outspoken, transparent, public and God forbid, get thoroughly pissed off if my husband dates someone else. You know, I'm weird like that. Sue me.

I'm going to get away from the house for awhile and away from the computer and phone. I need to pray and clear my head.